Coming to an end...already?

Alright so I've been doing this thing called NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month, http://www.nanowrimo.org). The goal is to write 50K words in a month. FIFTY THOUSAND FUCKING WORDS IN A MONTH!!!!!!!!! anyway i'm stressed about it still... i've been at a block for my story, i doubt i'm going to make it this year, maybe next year though. I mean i've tried forcing myself to further the story, I've tried gaming to take my mind off of it and come back later. fuck i've even tried thinking of the most wonderful person in the world to me....nothing is fucking helping...though she did suggest sleeping to me write now so maybe i'll do that....or read.. but that means i have to pull my books out... don't wanna do that though.... maybe i should.... DAMN THIS FUCKING STORY.. also my story is called Runes of Darkness. It's fantasy, not my normal genre but....whatever.

on another note i can't wait for The Black Prism to be finished so i can start reading that...

Last but not least....i'm going to sleep...so good night all.... I will promise to rant tomorrow as i have classes....